Sometimes, I’m lucky to encounter one of my own, someone who like me left their small town to move to the big city. They get me, and it’s kinda like coming home.
I felt this way, with this little lady’s mama.
She too is from my hometown.
And her daughters are just gorgeous!

As a mom of two babies who didn’t exactly recover her body in between pregancies, you could say I’m feeling a little vulnerable when it comes to my body. You could also say that I pretty much hide from the camera a lot of the time (one of the benefits of being a photographer is that you are expected to take more pictures than you are expected to pose for).

Still, I saw my children’s lives rolling along a breakneck speed and I wasn’t in any of the photos. Here I was preaching to all the moms I met how important it was for them to get in the photo, and I wasn’t doing it myself.

I do try not to dwell on my body and it’s current state too much. I try not to say anything negative about my body in front of my children, and I try to honour the place that grew my two littles. It’s not always easy. Some days I just look in the mirror and sigh. I know that they won’t be little forever and the day where I can make myself a priority again (at least for a few hours a week) will come.

But in the meantime, I can’t let their childhood be documented in my absence. And truth be told with proper posing even someone who isn’t thrilled with how they look in the mirror, can be quite pleased with how the camera treats them.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with how you look, and realistically there isn’t really anything wrong with how I look either, I just don’t like it. And pretending that I should just get over it won’t change that fact. Maybe, like me, you’re working on loving yourself a little more, and that’s awesome. But as we do that, can we just take some pictures of us that don’t make us cringe?

xoxo

Carrie

He was 3 weeks old, a little older than the average newborn I photograph.
Still, we got some great photos and had some good laughs.
Including a few out-takes like this one:

I was so pleased to come back and see this little guy for his 6-month session.

When I first showed up he was all smiles, although you might not be able to tell by the photos. What can I say, he’s a ladies man, all smiles when he could see my eyes, but stone-cold serious once I got the camera in front of my face.

Six months is such a great time for little ones to show off their mad tummy time skills, sitting skills and to really capture their interaction with mom and dad.

Enjoy the next few months! I can’t wait to see the little guy when he’s taking his first steps!

This kid has imagination to spare!

Nearing the end of the session, the words “Mars bar” came up, as Miss C had been promised some candy for cooperating. She made sure her parents didn’t forget the deal. She smiled, but this whole deal was wearing thin. Make with the chocolate!

Even when I returned to do their viewing session a week later, she made sure to point out in a particular photo when she was looking quite serious that “that was when I wanted my Mars bar”.

Well the results speak for themselves. I think I might start carrying a stash in my camera bag.

My sister at 16. I was all of 18 when I took this photo.

And it’s not just that I liked it. People loved what I did. They framed the photos and put them up on their wall. And I loved it too. I could disappear into the darkroom for hours, losing hours of daylight and tainting the tips of my fingers in the chemical baths. My trusty Nikon FE2 had become my most prized possession. And my photographs had become an extension of me.

Those around me trusted me to capture the most precious moments in their lives and they relive those moments by looking at those photos every day. Sometimes, I see those photos on their walls. Othertimes when distance separates us, I see the photos on their walls through photos they post on facebook, and it makes me feel closer to them even though they are really far away.

A couple of weeks ago, my husband went to visit my cousin and his family. My cousin’s son was turning 16, and we had been invited to his birthday party. I was working, but sent along my best wishes and my two kids!

When he got back, my husband told me a story about an interaction he had with my uncle while visiting. You see, when this same 16 year old boy was a baby, I snapped a photo of him and his grandfather. So as my uncle was showing my husband this photo of the sweet boy who was just a baby then, and is now almost a man, my uncle asked: “Guess who took this photo?”

I smiled as he told me the story because I knew the photo.  I knew it well. That photo is on display in my cousin’s home. It has moved with them several times over the years, but in each new home it has found a place of honour.

That photo is cherished by my uncle, by my cousin, and surely by my cousin’s son now.

I wish I would have been there to take a photo this beloved treasure, but I wasn’t.

Maybe some other time.

So instead I’ll share a photo of my own babe, because it makes me smile. I hope it makes you smile too.

Yep, I put a pink wig on my baby. What of it?

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Calm. I didn’t think birth could be so calm.

Doula gently stroking mama’s skin.

Dad whispering words of encouragement to the mother of his second child.

Midwives smiling as they greeted this new life.

Birth photographer loving every second.

Awesome.

Congratulations little family.

The doula seen in the slideshow is Kristi Clement from Helping Hands Doula.

Birthdays when they are real, live, right as it happens birthdays are pure magic. They are what birth photography is all about

I was lucky enough to be here for this little girl’s birthday.

After a relatively short but intense labour, baby C was ushered into mama’s arms.

Do you remember looking into your baby’s eyes the first time. This mama might not remember this moment, but now she has it captured, forever.

“Thank you Carrie for being there and being so great I can’t wait to see more pics…I am more than positive they are going to be awesome.
As much as I knew you were there, I didn’t (which is great when you hate having your picture taken). You’re awesome! Thanks again.”

S. Labelle

“Carrie easily captured the love we have for one another and our joie-de-vivre. She made us feel comfortable to be ourselves, this to laugh and relax – this combined with her expert eye and talent made for some wonderful photoshoots,”– S. Roy

I truly believe that comfort and confidence are the two basic ingredients to any successful photoshoot.

Why is that? Because if clients have confidence in the process and comfort in being themselves in front of my lens, then everything else just comes together.

The best sessions I have had, have come from times when the clients have expressed a certain kinship with me. I strive to get to know all my clients in a way that will allow us to capture them at their best– nothing forced, nothing contrived, just their naturally beautiful selves.